A New Kind of Autumn

From my early teens to my mid-twenties, autumn was my undisputed favorite. Nothing could beat stepping outside and feeling that slightly crisp air - the sign that nature was about to rest. Colorful leaves adorned the trees, soon wandering through parks and streets, painting everything in shades of yellow and red. I loved it more than any other time of year.

Now, I find myself back in autumn - not only in the calendar sense, but in the rhythm of my own life. Everything old seems to be quietly falling away, yet in its colorful beauty, it reminds me of countless magnificent moments.

There’s a certain unfamiliarity to living in this new way, like a gust of fresh air reminding me that things are different now. Stepping off the busy life of touring has brought a kind of drowsiness that can seem melancholic at times, but it’s also beautiful.

So here I am - looking around, taking it all in. Inevitably, my gaze drifts both backward and forward: to the past, where so much of my everyday life was built and to the future, that mysterious something my mind still sometimes insists on figuring out.

Looking back, I see years filled with dedication and working, training and resting, competing and more competing, always striving for “better.” Like it is a strange justification for missing the present by believing that’s just “how life works.”

But when I remove those future-focused glasses, I notice how much has changed. My little girl has grown into a teenager. I can find a few wrinkles on my face. Our house that’s been under renovation for years is nearly complete and already, the first scratches have appeared on doors. Life, in its quiet rhythm, keeps moving forward.

Before I turn the page, I want to look back at what’s written on the previous one. My competitive career spans about ten years so far, but it holds a lifetime of memories, experiences and lessons. Disc golf has been life-changing for me. It has shaped who I am and continues to play an important role - even if, for now, in a slightly different way.

When I entered this sport, I could never have imagined the paths it would take me down. One event led to another, and soon I found myself standing at the very top. I took home seven Major victories, including two World Championship titles and completing a grand slam in a calendar year in 2023. I won 20 DGPT events and in total stood on the top podium of PDGA competitions 102 times. I collected every color of medal at the European Championships - bronze, silver and the sweetest gold, which arrived meaningfully here in Estonia.

I was honored multiple times as Player of the Year and even achieved the highest female player rating in history, reaching 1003 at its peak.

But my growth didn’t happen only on the course. After my most successful season at the end of 2023, I began working with my manager, Matthias. Together we brought to life my website and built meaningful partnerships with companies who not only supported me but helped make disc golf visible to wider audiences.

Another major step was the creation of my own clothing collection - a dream that brought together my love for style and self-expression. Entering such a complex, competitive market was both scary and thrilling. As a small business, every risk and expense feels magnified, but thanks to iCOURT’s support via their knowledge of this industry, my dream became a reality. The collection can be found in my online store available for purchase - high-quality, unique pieces designed to make you feel both comfortable and radiant while playing or moving.

None of this, of course, was done alone. So many wonderful people and companies helped make it all possible, and for that, I am infinitely grateful. Sometimes, I wish I could capture a moment - hold it in my palm like a tiny golden sphere, to admire and protect it. But if there’s one certainty in life, it’s change - the eternal shift of seasons.

Life is a continuous sequence of moments. The mind loves to wander to the future or the past, but how beautiful it is to remember, not just in thought but through the body, that life happens right here and now. To notice when autumn arrives, when spring emerges. To sense when something old is ready to be replaced by something new. This is how I look at the autumn that’s arrived - the trees preparing for rest and with each falling leaf, I feel immense gratitude that we are always given the chance to begin again.